drunkardness and emotion

3 years has whizzed by in the wink of an eye. i've grown in aspects i've least expected to and ignored or pushed aside the rest.

love and life. from the lessons you have now taught me, love i've learnt is about giving and nurturing and not about neediness stemming from low self esteem that keeps seeking for more.

how quick a relationship once strong and happy turns into a bitter soup of hurt and sorrow. how it leads into a downhill spiral i do not know. drunkardness desuppresses the hindered expression of closet hurt and guilt, causing emotions rising from the bottomless well of darkness to erupt and overflow into neighbouring souls. how can we find a solution.

is relationships and people only an investment that we hope for returns? we take risks when we fear not, when we are filled and not empty. yet, emptiness could also drive the need for risk-taking and when in desperation for love or companionship, we could commit to things later we regret.

In return for stability of mind and emotions, I have taken away your right of self-expression. which is better of the two? self-expression without limits or the stability of mind and focussed energies?

fragmented thoughts of tonight i cannot seem to join. i'll leave the rest for another night.