how do we measure the worth of one's love or of one's life?

how do we measure the worth of one's love or of one's life?

through deeds performed by the individual and how they benefitted others or of the constant thoughts one has of his love?

can this be truly felt while one is alive? or should it's full effect be experienced only when the person is lost to this world and only his presence lingers on in your mind? that how long after it still haunts you, and however you wake up, you think of only one and you forget that he's gone. it hurts, yet the pain is so long buried under that there is no longer a way of reminising when fully awake. memories only belong and exist in dreams where time does not limit the dreamer to the present realities and one is free to be living any part of life, whether past or future, all captured in a moment, in a feeling, in a word. Compressed memories, thats how i would describe dreams. the only gribe i have is the human mind's inability to return to reality at the instant of waking. that it feels like waking up to a wrong time zone and worse still, the truth hits like a rock on the head. but no matter how i try, i cant go back through the time machine of dreaming to the time when i was content and happy and things were a certain way. funny that even the line of "it only happens in your dreams" doesn't apply here.

if time is circular in nature, would we return to what we once were?

would we find ourselves again in the chaos of this world? would circumstances lead to a happy ending?

i guess the worth of one's man is measured by the extent that he has loved another and the capacity he has to love another is driven by extent in which he is first loved. Can we conclude then that only a man who is greatly loved firstly can prove to be of great worth to this world?
the greatest man who gave himself for the lives of all must have been aware of being most greatly loved in the whole universe. how powerful that revelation is! empowering one to live to his true purpose and full potential, without worries, without concern and with bold confidence for the future ahead! I thank God that I am so abundantly loved and will remind myself of that everyday. with love comes trust, comes surrender.

5am revelation:
the measure of the worth of One's love and One's life is simply answered in Jesus.


Love the lyrics of this song.

How he loves by David Crowder Band.

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.