I'll never fall in love again...

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That’s what you get for all your trouble
I’ll never fall in love again
I’ll never fall in love again

What do you get when you kiss a girl
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia
After you do, she’ll never phone you
I’ll never fall in love again
I’ll never fall in love again

Don’t tell me what it’s all about
’cause I’ve been there and I’m glad I’m out
Out of those chains those chains that bind you
That is why I’m here to remind you

What do you get when you give your heart
You get it all broken up and battered
That’s what you get, a heart that’s shattered
I’ll never fall in love again
I’ll never fall in love again

Out of those chains those chains that bind you
That is why I’m here to remind you

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow
So for at least until tomorrow
I’ll never fall in love again
I’ll never fall in love again

I’ll never fall in love again
I’ll never fall in love again

Lyrics from the song by ELVIS COSTELLO

i just love the tune and the words..haha..kinda relate to it..wonder why

Healed by His Love

something miraculous just happened...

since monday, i was suffering from a backache due to a sudden sneeze...it cuased a pain in the lower back which shot all the way down to my legs..making me almost collapse onto the ground at times..it was so bad that even walking up and down stairs was painful..and i could not even bend down to pick up stuff on the floor..it was as though my body had aged dramatically and i felt like a 50-year-old woman..the backache came out of the blue and was so unexpected..maybe the lack of exercise contributed to it...hmmm..anyway, i went online to check on treatment for backache..n it stated that in most cases, full recovery takes about 7 days to 1 month...n i didnt know whether i had pulled a muscle or torn a ligament/tendon or pinched a nerve (like what shaar postulated)...worse still, even when i took panadol for muscle joint aches on monday, it didnt get any better..n i started to wonder how long it will take to heal by itself...

BUT.......i was praying just now for my backache to heal and for my cold to go away (nose to be cleared of stuffiness)...and..after that, i just bent over to see...and guess what??? NO MORE PAIN!!! it just suddenly went away...and i am fully healed now..even my cold is gone..n i can breathe at ease again! Now, i can even run and stretch!! SO wonderful!!! i simply cannot explain it....

Thank you, Abba for healing me. You have made me glad once again. =)
and I am still in awe....

years back..on board a sailboat..with a couple of friends 

Procrastination

Found this on another random blog site....

Normal people would go: “oh man, I have so much work to do, but I keep procrastinating.”

Neil Gaiman, writer of many fantastic things, on the other hand:

Work beckons.

Actually right now it doesn’t beckon; instead it holds up a megaphone in front of its mouth and is shouting “OY!” through it, and then making rude gestures as soon as it’s got my attention.

confused

as i wallow in self-pity, i feel a mix of loss, hurt, anger, self-resentment, helplessness and frustration.
angry that people should say things that they later go back on. not the simple things but the more important ones. childish of me..maybe..cannot accept change, maybe..believe in ideals and not reality..maybe..

guilt..drives people to certain actions and behaviors..
do i want others to do things for me out of guilt and obligation or out of love and care and concern?

we all would prefer the latter of course, but honestly, can we even distinguish the reasons for helping another? sometimes, we just do without thinking, like an automatic repsonse, without knowing the motive behind it...
purity of actions drawn from the heart is what i believe in. how many actually do that?

OR is the action more important than the reasons behind that one should stop questioning the deeper attitudes? is it better to just take things on the superficial level or at face value, instead of understanding the true meaning of one's acts of "love"?

i do not know. questions fill my mind, waiting to be answered.
But
i know, nearing the end of one's life, all these dont matter much.

life has always been simple, its people who complicate it.

ps. most would not enjoy my blog for the "heavy" content or the cynical views, but it dont matter to me. i'll write cos it makes me happy.

where does life take me next...

PGA.. AGS.. AGA.. ABP...BII, IMCB, GIS
acronyms that filled my day....

yup...those are none other than A star and issues relating to it....

it wouldnt be this disheartening if we all know what we wanted to do after we graduate, but most of us are still in the process of finding our directions...it makes one feel like boats in the vast sea that have suddenly lost all sense of their direction and route..simply drifting about now to and fro, being tossed and pulled by the currents and winds..till our navigational equipment is working once again and we know where we are headed towards..

get the drift?

makes me wonder if this is a symptom of ageing, growing old and apprehension faced in moving onto the next phase in life: Working life aka adulthood?
the realities of life are finally setting in now.. after escaping from them these 3-4 years in university.

well, the pressures of finding a job after graduation or obtaining a scholarship for graduate studies is slowly building up in all of us and more importantly, deciding whether to remain in this biomedical research field our whole lives. confused and lost..guess i have to look to Him to set my sails straight in the right path or the one best suited for me...but i know for sure that ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR THE GOOD TO THOSE WHO LOVE HIM AND WHO ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE. Romans 3:18 (i think!)

to find my purpose in His will...

for i know, i will never be in safer hands than His.

Thank you, Abba.