HURT: initiated in the mind but manifests bodily

why do we hurt the ones we love most? cant think of any reason except unforgiveness and condemnation of ourselves.

do we always have to blame someone for any mishap or calamity that occurs, from the iraq war to tsunamis and earthquakes? seems like human nature is fond of picking a target to dump all responsibilty upon, whether it be a person, a group of individuals, or god. and so often, do we forget to look at ourselves and realse how interconnected our lives are and that responsibility should be rightfully held by all of us... except god. maybe blaming others helps us to forget our inadequacies and imperfections by focussing on another's faults.


my mental energies these days are slowly decreasing, likewise any motivation. what's left is just doing things for the sake of being accountable towards them. an existence based solely on that is not enough for long term survival, lest to say for happiness. only little bits and pieces of life excites me temporary and the joy is quick to dissipate. does anyone understand what i mean? or are my feelings an isolated case?

a rut i have to find a way out from. any longer will this life-sucking virus drain every bit of my energy till what remains is a lifeless shell, an automated robot without a soul.

i long to be consumed with a ever-lasting joy. i know where it can be found. but i cant seem to reach it.

give me a large filter with micrscopic holes to filter my mind of any remnants of hurt...

thankful

for every circumstance i am faced with in life, no matter joyous or depressing it may be, i will be thankful. Thankful to the one above, my father. With total surrender from a heart that knows He wants the best for me, peace reigns in my life.
i am eternally grateful to Him who gives me joy, peace and hope.
distractions will be put away from my mind and in place, is the knowledge that He loves me with a love far greater than i can ever fathom or that i can take in.

Our mortal lives are temporary, but His love and faithfulness towards His children are eternal. they never fade through the centuries but remain as deep and strong since the beginning of the world and time. mortal love is inconsistent and waver with our acts and time, but immortal love lasts forever. it has no blemish because it epitomises perfection. perfection that everyone seeks for in this world, only to be disappointed time and time again. only prefect love never fails.
however, we lack the capability to comprehend the depth, the width, the height, the length, the breadth of this love with our small minds. it takes a life time to know love, to learn to love one another and to know Him as Abba. Nothing more can be as satisfying in life as that. Believe me, if not Christ.