Fulfilled

woah...legs are aching now..feet especially...coz guess what? been rollerblading for the past..hmm..10 hours almost..on wheels throughout..so really drained now..hahhaz..and that 10 hours included 3 hours of inline hockey training too!! manz..
wish i could upload photos directly here..anyone who knows..tell me k..don't really like the photoisland thingy..
was a prettty long day..almost awake for 24 hours continuous now..woke up at 7am to do my biology assigment on biochemistry..eee....spent like 8 hours doing it non-stop..then went to relax a lil' while after finally handing it up, satisfied and relieved. Ahhhhh......


self-sadomasochistic

somehow, i think im a bit sadomasochistic in that i enjoy doing last minute work, the high tension and stress involved and the adrenaline rush in trying to complete it well all within that time span...cool isnt it..guess i'll always be a procrastinater and last minute worker.. haha i know its bad..still in the process of metamorphosis...always will be..
the adrenaline probably lasted in my circulation for a long long time..which explains why i had that much energy to go for training and on top of that rollerblade around the whole of NTU and even out of school to 7-11 at 2am in the morning...
spent an hour there just looking at magazines and deciding which to buy..haha..finally bought the Her World march issue which i doubt i'll be reading it due to this current lethargic state..hmm..maybe i felt bad looking at the mags for so long right in front of the "no browsing' sign..haha..that i thought that i should get one at least...


Gossip mags and so forth

but these days, mags they sell are really thrashy..should juz see the content...all on the scandals of other people..i mean, right it sells, but is that the only way for a mag to sell? to stoop to the level of selling rubbish or 'juicy' gossip of others' private lives? hmm..but as they say, there's no supply if there's no demand..how true is that anyway?

take for example, there is coffee sold in coffee shops for juz a mere 80 cents..and there is also coffee sold in coffeebean for $4 plus...and people still buy the coffee that costs more..issit because there is a demand for it before the supply came about? was there a demand for more expensive, better quality coffee before people started realising it?

or is the demand or search for something more intrinsic, something that goes deeper than just coffee, maybe a better quality of living?

so likewise in that case of gossip magazines, do people enjoy reading scandals of thers that they may derive pleasure from their pain, to know that they are in a better sinking boat than the others?
humans are sadistic creatures to call this entertainment.
But anyway, i bought one. forgive me, Im just human.

Juz reformatted the blog...
realise that keeping a blog is the best way to use up spare time or waste whatever time supposedly meant for other things on it.
depends on how u look at it and how much time you have i guess.
right now, its the latter for me.

what right do we have to judge others, unless we first judge ourselves?
i find myself growing older and not being able to accept certain types of behaviours in people. i become intolerent to many things which i might even be guilty of.
is this a manifestation of my inner insecurity, that i dismiss others for small little faults? when i have even more major ones in my own character..
the most insecure people criticise others the most, for fear that others might first uncover their faults and criticise them for that.

To praise others, give them compliments and encouragement instead of disdain is a priceless virtue, rarely found in us homosapiens.
we try so hard subconsciously to push others down, thinking that in that way, we naturally will rise up and be better individuals. the paradox of that belief.

wonder why the human tongue can't be tamed after trying for so many centuries..
some traits (genes?) never get lost through the generations i guess...

seeking to find my place in this world, what God's will for my life is, and the paths I should take to reach there.

the journey at this point is unclear as the clouds of dense fog enshrouds my view.
whether it is night or day, i have forgotten and lost all sense of time.
the only road i have is to continue moving on and hopefully,
will daylight break forth through the mists and show me thy way.

i think im born under the wrong astrological sign or my birthdate isnt what its supposed to be. wonder what went wrong and where. even here states u r most likely a scorpio, sagitarrius or aries but im not..

IS this me???? hahahha..



The Villian

Your Jobs: Even at the workplace, you cant deal
with authority. You need a job where you can
control outcomes.You would make a good
detective, lawyer, dictator, politician, model,
or movie director.
You need someone you can control, someone who is
willing to let you dominate them. You prefer a
person who is your opposite, submissive and
docile, but still a challenge. You want
someone who wont change, even though you will.
They will need to cherish you and they will be
your number one minion. Your love interest
would be the number one importance in your
life. You would kill for them...
Your dream guy would be Randy from Scream
Your dream girl would be Sydney from Scream or
Willow from Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
You most likely...
Are a Scorpio, Sagitarrius, or Ares,
Are fascinated by death and/or the occult,
Are interested in horror movies,
Like the TV shows Survivor and Buffy the Vampire
Slayer,
Have got into more than one physical/verbal
fight...and won them all.

Best Friends: You would be good friends with other
Villians. You would also get along with Rebels
and Social Butterflies.
Love Interests: You would be happy with a Dreamer,
Planner, or Other Half
Enemies: Child and Ares


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haha..yipee...i got legolas..! =p



Legolas
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realli like this picture with the rays of sunlight streaming through the clouds...


Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
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What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics)
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Aphrodite/Eros


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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whats the point of writing? i ponder as i write.
to have personal problems being let loose for the whole world to see, a disgrace for some and yet for others, a means to draw comfort and concern from friends reading it. in concern, can anything be done to solve the existing problem? or is concern and comforting words merely a way to spread rose petals over the grave? a way to shut the eye from the ugly and distressed? to turn the attention to the beauty of a rose?
however beautiful a rose is, thorns are found. within the words of comfort spoken, thorns that prick the heart and set the tears trickling brings one back to reality of the problem.

things that should not be spelled out should always be kept silent.
in silence, there is woe and hope.