one thing leads to another

In my attempts to revamp my blog and post some thoughts I had late last sat night, it led me to more than what I expected. All started with a thought of logging into blogspot but which later resulted in a last minute frenzy of booking airline tickets and cramming as many things i could think of into a suitcase in just a span of 15 minutes. Sounds vaguely like I was on the run for some hienous crime i committed and was forced to leave the country or risk being caught. The irony was I chose to leave at last minute's notice, chose to involve myself in an adrenaline-filled rush that how i dealt with every minute or second at each stage would determine if i will or will not get to my final destination: Philippines. Risk and spontaneity was possibly what i was craving for. I do not like change honestly speaking or coming out of my comfort zone. But why this sudden impulsive behaviour? i do admit that the last few weeks or so with nothing to look forward to in lab or at home was accelerating my ageing process. That maybe all i wanted was to see risk and change eye to eye. When i was young, rollercoasters in amusement parks could satisfy this longing which occurred once a while. Now, older and not so easily taken in by scary rides, I craved for something more exciting that could take me to a level higher. What difference is there between this and drug users wanting an increased dosage of drugs or drinkers wanting more alchohol? Same root of the cause but different means of expression.
At least mine hasnt come to a stage of violating any law yet.