Tuesday, December 23, 2003

its the eve of christmas eve. is everyone preoccupied with stuff of their own to do except me?
strangely, if not for the christmas decorations around town, i would have unknowingly forgotten that christmas is here, at my doorstep. its ironic that physical things around us have to remind us of important things. without which, we would continue in our mundane, routine of life. maybe, i just refuse to face the fact that christmas is here right now. it's too early this year. Things have yet to be favourable and the appropriate time has not come to invite christmas here for any festivities and celebrations. Wish it would delay and come later next year, then maybe i might be ready for it.


Saturday, December 06, 2003

twisted. that's what the world is. people dun say what they mean but try n cover it up with crap. more insecure one is, more crap they say, juz to entertain others n hide their deepest fears from others. again its fear of what others think of themselves. why cant we put off all these facades n come clean with ourselves n people around us?
might save us from conflicts, misunderstandings n sour relationships, would it?
values n priorities r tiwsted as well.
the important becomes unimportant and vice versa. maybe i'm juz being too pessimistic n cynical here. maybe thats how i am? genetically or environmentally influenced..i wonder.

Friday, December 05, 2003

solitary
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."


The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Tuesday, December 02, 2003

i learnt today that the past can never be brought back.
has gone away. soon to be only a little fragment of my memory. that's all it would be.
i'll bury it somewhere safe and hidden where i can dig it out occassionally to look back at it with bittersweetness.