.....'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back...

lyrics from Perfect by simple plan

how often do our expectations of others destroy our relationships with them..?
and its strange that we expect most from the ones closest to us..
even of ourselves, we expect a lot... too much maybe?

But isn't it good to have an ideal, a standard from where we can work to achieve?

Probably too much is bad..especially expecting from others..we cant assume that our ideals fit theirs, can we?

Maybe that's where love comes in, on learning to accept their faults and their humanistic ways as we accept ourselves for who we are.

Only then can self-improvement follow and expectations be met.

Another day has passed but i still haven't found the drive or passion i once possessed..
No knowledge of when it left me or how I carelessly lost it..
Just the hope of its return..

Change..the biggest dread we all face in whatever situations but its the basic component in evolution or progress. Why are we afraid of change? Maybe losing part of ourselves (beliefs, characteristics, ideas etc) and coming to that realization frightens us. Everyone has his or her ideas or beliefs which one holds onto so tightly. they manifest in our actions and decisions and form the basis of how and why we live our lives the way we do. Changing these ideas or beliefs would mean changing our perspective on life and our way of living. the reason why the change we have to make is difficult and foreboding is because we have no knowledge of the impact and the consequences of that change in our lives. the funny thing is, the older we get (the wiser we should be, leading to greater understanding and acceptance of change pressumbly), yet the more resistant to change we are. Maybe. we are just afraid of the realisation that we have been fools for almost our whole lives and our pride stands in our path of change and of learning.
However, Be it good or bad, we sometimes have to take the risk and be brave and bold enough to face it without regrets. Besides, what's there to lose but only our own pride...

taking too much responsibility over certain things or people and caring so little about others isnt really the right way to live life right? or is that how most people function?
its a very unbalanced lifestyle, extremes of irresponsibility and over-responsiblity, both leading to self-condemnation and worry.

anyway, on to lighter stuff, really enjoyed my birthday..went to womad for a night of great music and performance. The passion displayed by the musicians was overwhelming and it invoked much emotions from the audience. Their kind of music is something i would label as "music of its purest and richest form". With each performance, i and many others (i'm sure) were brought to higher levels of emotions till we forgot everything around us. All unseen boundaries were broken and our souls became connected within the music. A realm i will never cease to forget. Will definitely go for next year's womad to drown in the amazing atmosphere!
Not forgetting, The company of good friends(shaar, mich and bert) i was with and the delectable, home-made, effort sown-in food made by all of us perfected the entire atmosphere and experience. That night, 30th august 2003 would truly be forever etched deep in my memory.